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Tuesday, September 10, 2013

HAZARDOUS UNIONS by Kat Flannery and Alison Bruce

HAZARDOUS UNIONS: Two Tales of a Civil War Christmas by Kat Flannery and Alison Bruce

Twin sisters separated by war, bound by love…...

After the death of their father, twin sisters Maggie and Matty Becker are forced to take positions with officers’ families at a nearby fort. When the southern states secede, the twins are separated, and they find themselves on opposite sides of America’s bloodiest war.

In the south, Maggie travels with the Hamiltons to Bellevue, a plantation in west Tennessee. When Major Hamilton is captured, it is up to Maggie to hold things together and deal with the Union cavalry troop that winters at Bellevue. Racism, politics and a matchmaking stepmother test Maggie’s resourcefulness as she fights for Bellevue, a wounded Confederate officer and the affections of the Union commander.

In the north, Matty discovers an incriminating letter in General Worthington’s office, and soon she is on the run. With no one to turn to for help, she drugs the wealthy Colonel Cole Black and marries him, in hopes of getting the letter to his father, the governor of Michigan. But Cole is not happy about being married, and Matty’s life becomes all about survival.

Two unforgettable stories of courage, strength and honor.


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Excerpts:


MAGGIE by Alison Bruce

Fall 1862.

The Yankees were coming.

We'd seen the signs days ago. News was, most of west Tennessee had fallen under Union control. Thaddeus scouted them out while hunting rabbits in the brush that bordered the plantation's cotton fields. We'd prepared as best we could as fast as we could, and now I was waiting for them on the front veranda of Bellevue.

"Why me?"

"Someone has to meet them, Miss Maggie," Mammy said, setting out tea things as if the neighbors were coming to call. "Mrs. Hamilton hasn't got your nerve and Miss Patience wouldn't be a lick of good even if she would come downstairs."

"I'm just a servant," I objected half-heartedly.

Yeah, like Tad here is just a dumb nigger." Mammy cocked her head to one side and a moment later I heard the faint but shrill whistle of the kettle. She smoothed the skirt of her greying white pinny over her faded grey dress. Eventually, the two garments were going to match. "Watch out for her, boy," she said, before heading around the corner of the wraparound porch toward the kitchen door.

Only Mammy could get away with calling Thaddeus "boy" or "nigger" without coming under the resolute stare of a man who looked like he could have been carved out of a huge block of obsidian. Mammy was his aunt and had raised him, along with Major Hamilton, from nursery age. The boys had been more like brothers than master and slave, Mammy said, until Master Ned was sent off to West Point to be made an officer and a gentleman. It was hard for me to reconcile her picture of Master Ned with the aloof man who had employed me to take care of his wife.

I was barely sixteen when I was hired by the Captain, now Major Hamilton. Some days I felt that I was twice that age now, instead of just a couple of years older. Today, watching the Union contingent approach, I felt like that frightened girl again. I took small comfort in the pair of pistols hidden in the pockets of my crinoline. Knowing that Thaddeus was watching over me from the shadows, armed to the teeth, was more reassuring.

Half a dozen hard looking men approached the house. Four of them spread out, some facing us, some partly turned to keep an eye on the out buildings. Two of them rode up the path towards the porch. I felt like I was being ringed in by a pack of hungry wolves. The leader of the pack rode up to the bottom of the front steps.

Wolfish was a description that fit him. Hard muscled, wary eyes, shaggy dark hair spiking out from his cap, he looked old with experience and young in years. His uniform had seen better days and his beard was untrimmed, but it appeared that he had made some effort to clean up before approaching the house. That was a good sign.

I had also made an effort for appearances sake. Instead of my usual long braid, I had twisted my blonde hair into knot and allowed tendrils to fall free on either side of my face. I was wearing one of the calico dresses Mrs. Hamilton bought me in St. Louis. She wanted to make it clear that I was no mere servant any more. I was using it today for similar reasons.

"Afternoon, ma'am. I'm Captain Seth Stone. I have a cavalry troop under my command that needs to set up quarters for the winter."

"I see." My voice was steady, but I could feel my knees wobble beneath my skirts. "And?"

"And this looks like a good place to stay."

"How many are you expecting us to accommodate?"

I heard a chuckle from one of his men. It was stifled with a sharp look from the grim-faced sergeant behind the captain.

"Not so many as there should be," the Captain said, ignoring the interruption. "If you'd oblige me by asking your man to lay down his arms, maybe we can discuss terms."

“Gott hilf mir,” I prayed, but held my ground. "You have your protectors, Captain. I have mine."

With a hand gesture, he signaled his men and they all dismounted as neatly as if they were on parade. Then he dismounted and held out his reins to the sergeant.

"Thaddeus, would you lead these troopers and their horses to water?"

Thaddeus stepped out of the shadows, empty handed. "Yes, miss."

The two men passed on the stairs. Thaddeus was significantly taller and broader than the Union officer and was doing his best guard dog imitation, but the Captain didn't flinch when they passed. He did keep his eye on Thaddeus until he was in the range of his own men. Then he turned his attention back to me and I lifted my head up to make eye-contact. He may not have been as tall as Thaddeus, but he was not a small man and I am on the short side for a woman.

Having asserted his dominance, he backed up a step.

"I understand this is the Hamilton home. Are you Mrs. Hamilton?"

"No, sir. I am Magrethe Becker, Mrs. Hamilton's companion."

His eyes widened. "Maybe I should be speaking to the lady of the house."

"Mrs. Hamilton is indisposed and asked me to..." I stopped, looking for the right word. Meet with him? That sounded too friendly. Deal with him? Almost rude. "Negotiate terms with you."

He let out a short bark of laughter.

"My terms are simple, Miss Becker. I need to winter seventy men and three officers, plus myself. It'll be tight, but this place looks like it has enough room with the house and out buildings. We'll need food and fodder of course. You can either offer, or I will take."

I shook my head. "No."

He barked out a longer laugh. "What makes you think you're in the position to say no?"

"Twelve wounded union soldiers in our care, Captain Stone."

***

MATTY by Kat Flannery

Fort Wayne, Michigan

December 1862

What had she done? Matty Becker was going to hell, and there'd be no one to save her. A loud snore echoed from the other room. She peeked around the corner and caught a glimpse of Colonel Black's stocking feet. She'd burn for sure. She glanced at the paper she held and groaned. She was a horrible, devious, scheming letch. Maggie wouldn't be pleased. Maggie wasn't here. Another snore blew into the kitchen and she placed her head onto the table banging her forehead twice. There was no turning back now.

Last night she'd pushed aside her conscience and let fear guide her. For her plan to work, she'd have to throw all sense to the dogs, not that she hadn't done so already by following through with the blasted thing. She couldn't fail now. If her family found out what she'd done they'd never forgive her. Worse yet, if Colonel Black found out she'd be locked behind bars, a fate far better than the one that got her in this mess to begin with.

She placed the paper on the table and went into the bedroom. Colonel Black lay on the bed with his clothes stripped off and tossed about the floor. He'd been out for nine hours and would wake any minute. Matty stood, pushed all thoughts of reason from her mind and removed her dress, corset and pantaloons. Her face heated and the room spun. He rolled over and she jumped into the bed next to him, pretending to sleep. She knew the moment he'd woken. The bed stilled and she couldn't breathe the air was so stiff.

"What the hell?" He sat up and she knew the instant he saw her. "Son of a bitch."

She felt his nudge once, twice and now a shove almost knocking her from the bed.

"Wake the hell up," he growled.

She squeezed her eyes closed and willed strength into her soul so she could face the dark Colonel. She rolled over pretending to wipe the sleep from her eyes.

"Who are you?" He placed his head in his hands. She'd bet he had one heck of a headache.

"Your wife," she said.

"The hell you are." He shot out of bed without grabbing the sheet, and she averted her eyes.

"Please cover yourself." She held up the sheet and he ripped it from her hand. "The marriage license is in the kitchen on the table if you do not believe me."

She watched as he grabbed his head and closed his eyes. The heavy dose of laudanum she'd placed in his drink the night before had done the trick and it wasn't but a mere suggestion they marry that the Colonel jumped to the challenge. Soon they were standing in the dining room in front of a preacher. Words were spoken—words she thought to say with someone she loved, someone who'd wanted her. Her stomach lurched and her mouth watered with the urge to vomit.

"How did this happen?" he asked sitting on the end of the bed.

"Mrs. Worthington sent me to see if you needed anything."

"I was drinking." He looked at her. "I was drunk."

She shrugged.

He stood holding the sheet tight to his midsection.

She couldn't help but notice the rippled stomach and defined muscles on his chest.

"We can annul. I had too much to drink. My head wasn't clear."

She shook her head.

He frowned.

"We have consummated." A lie of course but she was desperate.

His mouth fell open. A moment she knew he'd not remember. After the preacher left, she'd taken him to the bedroom where he passed out before hitting the bed.

"Impossible. I'd remember that."

She shook her head again praying he'd buy the fib.

He pulled on his pants and dress shirt. "I don't even know you. Why in hell would I marry you?"

"My name is Matty Beck—Black. I was employed with the Worthington's. You've come to dinner several times."

His brown eyes lit with recognition. "You're the house maid."

"Yes."

"I married a maid?"

The words stung and she turned from him so he wouldn't see the disappointment upon her face.

"Why would you marry me if I was into the spirits?"

"You seemed fine to me."

He took a step toward her. "Why would you marry me at all when you don't even know me?"

She gripped the blanket on the bed. "You…you said kind words, and I…I believed them.

"How desperate are you to marry a stranger?" he yelled. "You found out who my father is. You want money. You tricked me."

Well, he got the last one right, but the first two irritated her. She was not the kind of person to marry for money. Really, who did he think she was?

"Sorry to disappoint you but I refused my inheritance years ago."

"If you mean to say that I could not find myself a suitable husband because I am a maid, then you're wrong."

"That is exactly what I am saying Miss—"

"Black."

"The hell it is."

He went into the kitchen picked up the marriage license and stared at it.

Matty dressed quickly and inched into the room. Confusion pulled at his features and she began to feel sorry for him. This was her fault. She'd planned this. Now she had to continue telling the lie she'd told. She glanced outside and shivered. Boldness, be my tongue. Shakespeare's words echoed in her mind. It was worth it. She'd been living in fear for a week. Colonel Black had been her saviour, and she risked a life full of love and happiness for this—a lie in which she'd speak for the rest of her life. She swallowed back the lump in her throat and willed the tears not to fall.

"Why can't I remember?" He glanced at her. "And why in hell would I marry you?"

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Thursday, August 15, 2013

STAIRWAY TO AWESOMENESS by Comic Strip Mama

STAIRWAY TO AWESOMENESS by Comic Strip Mama aka: Tanya Masse

30 Fundamental Steps to Living a Life of Awesomeness!

AWESOMENESS—Only YOU can choose to make the climb!

Being a happy, positive person and living a life of awesomeness is a choice. In the face of adversity, it isn’t always easy to make, but it is a necessary choice if you want to live life to the absolute fullest.

Written and illustrated with infinite wisdom and an original comic twist, Stairway to Awesomeness is the ultimate 30-step self-improvement guide that will make you want to change your life forever and encourage others to do the same.

Comic Strip Mama cartoonist and writer, Tanya Masse, shares her tragedy-to-triumph life story with the world and proves that no matter what adversity you are faced with, as long as you have a shred of sanity left, you CAN rise above and BE AWESOME!

Comic Strip Mama shows you how to:

• CHANGE your way of thinking about certain things you have been conditioned to believe
• STOP taking life SO SERIOUSLY
• Focus on the POSITIVE lessons
• Recognize the BLESSINGS
• Find the HUMOR in everything. Yes, even tragic things!

Now make your choice, and start climbing the Stairway to Awesomeness!

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A little Message from Mama:

To me, "Awesomeness" is the closest thing to perfection that a human being can possibly achieve. Awesomeness encompasses so much that I will talk about in this book, but most importantly, it encompasses strength, happiness, success, purpose and self-worth — all of the things we so desperately seek throughout our journey of life. It is the ultimate feeling of being complete and living life to the absolute fullest.

The key to achieving true awesomeness is recognizing it, wanting it, pursuing it and practicing it, even in the face of adversity and tragedy!

My Intention and a Little Disclaimer

My real life name is Tanya and many of you probably know me as the Comic Strip Mama! Well, in this book I'm not speaking to you as a parent. The things that you will learn from this book will certainly and ultimately help you be a better parent, but that is not what this book is about. This book is all about learning how to change your way of thinking, how to embrace the insanity of life and how to be an awesome, strong, happy and positive person. My next book will be ALL about "the awesome, the insanity and the drama" of parenthood, but for now, what you have in your hands is all about YOU!

Anybody who really knows me as the person I am today will probably tell you that I am a strong, happy, positive, loving, kind and a little bit insane woman and mother with a witty sense of humor who NEVER takes life very seriously and who always looks for the awesome in every person and everything. *BIG deep breath* Cuz that was a really loooong sentence!

Well it's true. That is exactly who I am today. And if I can't manage to somehow find the awesome or at least the good in someone or something, I will look for the blessings, the positive lessons and the funny. It's just what I do. And that's why I love being a comic strip artist and writer!

My "Comic Strip Mama" venture all started with the simple notion that I was determined to encourage others to focus on the positive and the humor while struggling through the insanity and challenges of life and parenthood instead of taking it WAY too seriously. And I'm thrilled that I'm actually doing it! If you think about it, a lot of the negativity in the world today exists simply because people CHOOSE to take life way too seriously and that really needs to change.

The truth is I was not always this awesome, strong, happy and positive person...I had to lose a lot, struggle a lot and learn to BE this way. I will never stop living and learning and I still struggle some days, but that's ok. I know exactly what I have to do to KEEP BEING this way and that is why I'm writing this book. It is my hope that I will help others learn how to BE the same way simply because it's an awesome way to live and be. And if more people are living life being awesome and happy, think about how awesome and happy the entire world would be!

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Sunday, August 4, 2013

DEVOLUTION by Peter Clenott

DEVOLUTION by Peter Clenott

What does it truly mean to be ‘Human’?

... Chiku Flynn wasn’t raised to be human. Born in the Congolese rainforest, she spends her first eleven years as part of an experiment. For her, the aboriginal—the primitive—is ‘normal.’

Just after her eleventh birthday, Chiku witnesses the horrifying death of her mother, and her father sends her ‘home’ to the United States, to a normal teenager’s life. But she can’t adapt. She is the proverbial wild child—obstinate and defiant.

When her father disappears, sixteen-year-old Chiku heads back to the primordial jungle, where she uncovers her own dark past and puts to use her greatest skill: she can communicate via sign language with the wild chimpanzees of Chimp Island.

But there is turmoil in the rainforest—civil war, environmental upheaval…and murder. The lives of the chimps and the safety of the people she loves depend upon one teenaged girl who refuses to be messed with—Chiku Flynn.

 
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CHAPTER 1

Perched on a branch in a tree at the top of Chimp Hill, the highest point on the island, Scallion studied the night sky. In times past, the moon, the stars, all of the bright objects set in the darkness above, would have held no meaning for him or for his fellow chimpanzees. With good reason their curiosity was focused on the earth and upon the rain forest in which they lived, how it fed them and nurtured them. This had been true since the beginning of time, since the first chimpanzee found a home here. Only the arrival of the girl and her parents had changed that, changed everything, in fact.

Scallion didn’t feel the wind breathing through his brown fur, didn’t feel its soft tickling. Sometimes the moon shone a brilliant red or even purple, colors reflecting off the water of the Mamba River, which flowed around Chimp Hill and created his island home. On those nights the young chimpanzee reflected upon days buried deeply but firmly in his memory when he and the human female played tag and leaped through the trees, wraaing and hooting and pretending they were of the same kind.

Tonight the mouth-shaped moon seemed to be frowning. The girl had explained to him, using her hands in a language her father was teaching them, that they all lived on a great big ball. Using the thumb and middle finger of her left hand she would pinch her right wrist and explain to them that their world made a circle every day so that light was a part of the morning and darkness an expected feature of night.

"The moon," she signed, touching her forehead with two fingers in the shape of the crescent, "is a ball of rock that floats in the air so far away birds can never reach it. Chimpanzees can never get there either, but our kind can." 

Scallion lowered himself down the tree, branch by branch. He was young, just entering that stage in his life when he would be mating with one of the females of the island or perhaps one who crossed into their territory from the nearby grasslands. He remembered the girl telling him one day when she shared a piece of banana cake that they had both turned eleven. The number meant nothing to him though she had tried to explain to him the passage of time, how the earth turned about the day star with the moon playing tag much as the girl and the chimpanzee did. It wasn’t long after that exciting birthday, when they had splashed and played in the river, that she vanished from his life never to return. The passage of time seemed forever from that long ago day, but he still missed her. Good night moon. Good night stars.

Maybe his sadness played into his feeling of unease tonight. On some evenings the crescent moon would be so bright the girl could read her books to the chimpanzees without use of her light stick. Tonight the moon made his fur stand on end. There was no appeasing it with hand signs or soft coos. The family was feeling edgy. They had eaten their evening meal and formed their nests in the trees, but none could sleep. It wasn’t just the moon that disturbed. It was the man, Tree Storm, the girl’s father.

Jumping to the ground, Scallion moved as quickly as he could down the slope of the hill to find his troop. His knuckles scraped the ground. Much as he attempted to walk as the tall hairless ones, he could not stay upright and erect for as long as they could. He admired his friend, the girl. She had learned to move like the chimpanzees such that even in the densest part of the forest, she could dart this way and that, graceful as a bird in the trees or as an okapi on the grasslands. She could throw, too. Once she hurled a rock clear across the wooden bridge to the mainland to hit a tree on the far side. Scallion’s arms were far more powerful than hers, but his attempts at hitting the tree always fell short or far to the left or right. What frightened Scallion was that two nights ago he had been right on target. Only the target had not been a tree.

At the base of the hill he stopped to listen, scared. Pop! Pop! Pop in the sky. Popping thunder. But not the kind of roar the clouds bring with the rain.

"Hoo! Hoo!" he called.

The chimpanzee no longer trusted the two-legs. The world had changed, was changing. More humans had moved into the forest chimp lands, an uncountable number, bringing with them much noise and anger. Outsiders. Strangers. Death followed them. They bled like the moon at its reddest, and the chimpanzees bled with them.

"Hoo! Hoo!" Sitting on his haunches, Scallion let out a series of plaintive hoos and beseeching waas. "Hoo-waa! Hoo-waa! Hoo hoo-waa! Where are you?" he called and listened.

Pan, their leader, the primary male, didn’t know what to do. Without Tree Storm, without the man, Pan acted like a young animal, seeking the comfort of the others. He hooted nervously just as much as Scallion’s sister Cream and his favorite playmate Black Bart did. Only Scopes remained at ease, watchful, but Scopes was different from the other chimpanzees. Under the man’s guidance all of the forest clan had been learning to use the fingers of their hands to make words, but Scopes could actually speak some human. Like the girl. Like her father. Like the scary men who were roaming the forest of the island hunting chimpanzees, stealing them, killing them.

"Hooo! Hooo!" Scallion had to wait only momentarily before his ears picked up a response. Eagerly he cried out again, "You hear? Come! Beach! Come!" Then he hurried in the direction of the cove where the ceremony would begin. Calls echoed throughout the island as group called to group to relay Scallion’s message.

The beach was on the river side of the island. The chimpanzees, about a dozen in all, were busy grooming one another, picking bugs and specks of dirt off each other’s fur. The youngest, those not clinging to their mothers, were playing catch-me through the trees much as Scallion had done in his younger days when the girl ruled his life like a fine strong big sister. All of them stopped what they were doing when Scallion came shouting into their midst.

"Talk time! Come! Beach!" He used his hands to sign the words he couldn’t vocalize, beating at the ground in frustration whenever he was misunderstood. Flynn, who the chimpanzees called Tree Storm because his arms and legs trembled and shook whenever he was angry with them, had been a good enough teacher. But it had been the girl who bonded with the primates of the Congolese rain forest. She would groom Scallion and the others, tending to them almost like she was their mother. All the while her calm voice and gentle manner made it easy for the chimpanzees to pick up her language. But she had been gone for so long, and her father, well, whenever he drank the hot liquid he ceased being able to teach anyone anything.

The clatter behind him, the chatter and jumping from the trees, told Scallion that his family was following him, but he constantly turned his head to make sure that he was not being fooled. Pop! Pop! Two nights ago there had been much commotion in the forest, yelling, shouting, humans arguing with the man known as Tree Storm. Scallion had been a witness to it, had been frightened by it. And now Tree Storm, Flynn, was gone, nowhere to be seen. Confusion followed in the wake of his mysterious disappearance. Scallion was just doing what his instincts told him to do whenever the forest clan was disturbed and had no one to turn to to tell them what to do. The primary male Pan was just too inadequate these days.

Along a path which ran through grass more than double his height, Scallion quickened his pace as though the moon could not wait. After a while he could feel the swifter air that flowed across the Mamba River carrying with it the odors of the distant world and the humans who inhabited it. He could smell fish and crocodiles and antelope and lion but nothing filled the air with such stench as the humans. The girl. She was different, always had been. She smelled like a chimpanzee. She smelled like family.

Scallion slapped a few last branches out of his way before his padded feet touched the pebbled surface of his beach. Here, unencumbered by branches, leaves and vines, the night sky beckoned the chimpanzees into a world of light and darkness, myth and magic. Bedecked in black with a speckling of white lights and a wounded lunar eye, the night was watching her children’s ceremony. Across the water a glow of another kind lit up the grassy flatlands. Burning lights. Hundreds of them. Pots boiling. Meat cooking. Fire rising into the sky. Humans. Invaders.

Pop! Trying to ignore the human noise, the young chimpanzee moved along the border of the beach and the forest until he came to a small cove. A row boat had been pulled up onto the shore years ago and left unattended on the rocks. Scallion stopped at the boat, whose owner had long since been lost to the crocodiles of the river, and, turning to face his family, he raised his hands, beckoning them in the fashion of a teacher to be seated. When they were and when Scallion was satisfied that he had their attention, he turned back to the boat and climbed inside.

The floor of the craft still wore streaks of red sheltered in places from the rain. An oar lay on the bottom, the one the girl had been using the day her mother died. Scallion had been a witness to everything, how a crocodile had broken the surface of the river to grab the boat’s unfortunate occupant. Now he gazed at his audience before bending over to dig in the collection of sand at the bottom. After a few scoops, his hand touched something hard, his buried treasure. He gripped it with strong fingers, looked once again at all of those intrigued eyes, then lifted the object high in the air.

Flynn had purchased the book for his daughter. She would come down to this very beach to read to her friends the tales of a man with a yellow hat and of his companion, a chimpanzee, like Scallion, who was very curious.

Scallion’s lips curled back to expose his teeth in a wide grin. Excited panting and hooting filled his ears as his family prodded him to tell them everything he remembered.

He waited for a hush. Oh, how he wished the girl were with him now. How do you really tell about a girl? How do you explain her importance? How even in the most frightful of moments she could speak in a way that took away all fears. Scallion had tried to do these things many times before without her. But the world was changing. Humans had invaded their land, and the two-legged father they had relied on all their lives was missing.

Scallion tried to cheer and comfort Pan and Cream, Black Bart and Scopes, but he longed for the old days and for the girl with the black hair and the eyes dark as the night. Their sister. Their teacher. The girl the chimpanzees called Talk Talk.

CHAPTER 2

"See the wall? We gotta jump it, Jess. Keep up with me! They’ll bust us, if we don’t."

Oh, she could talk, all right. Once she got started, in fact, it was hard to stop her.

"Who? Everyone, that’s who. We just can’t let ‘em. Screw the world. We don’t cave for nobody’s shit! There’s no obstacle the PMs can’t tame."

"Chiku!"

She could leap and swing, too. Like a chimpanzee through the trees. She wasn’t all lip and tongue and vocal cords. Life’s barrier tonight was a four-foot-high concrete wall meant to keep her and her four friends from entering the prohibited construction area on the platform of the North Station T line. Chiku flew down the ramp on roller blades all the while yapping to her mates who were trying to keep up with her on their own skates.

"No rules. No laws. Just common sense and a keen eye for what’s what."

At the last instant, as the concrete barrier loomed several yards ahead, Chiku maneuvered up a ramped piece of plywood at full speed, tucked her knees under her chest, then thrust with all her might. Zooming over the wall, she landed sure-footed and flying on the other side.

"In a world without a safety net, she who has good balance rules."

Chiku spun about, kicking up a swirl of dust and debris. Her BFF Jess was right behind on roller blades but caught the top of her left boot on the concrete wall and took a tumble skidding across the hard tiled floor. Chiku caught her in her arms.

"Almost hit it, girl," Chiku said. She helped her friend up. "You okay?"

"Just minor scarring," Jess said. She showed off a scrape on her arm that cut across a tattoo of a skeleton wearing a bridal gown. Pink-haired Jess was heavier than Chiku and could tolerate the beating her body took whenever she freerode with her high school friend.

Both were sixteen. Both were tattooed. A tiny amethyst ring ornamented Chiku’s nose. Jess chose to have her eyebrows pierced. They wore black fingerless gloves and took no prisoners. While Jess was built to absorb the physical shocks that life could throw, Chiku was slender, wiry. Jess had never seen anyone, male or female, who could skate like her. Lithe and toned like a gymnast, Chiku wore her black hair in a shag hidden beneath a knitted woolen monkey hat that she pulled down to her eyebrows. Her jeans were ripped at the knees and her T-shirt told the observant passer-by ‘staring isn’t polite’. When she stared at you with her violet eyes, which she did whenever she wanted you to get the message she was pissed, she transfixed you.

"You were one lousy toe from the gold metal stand, hon," Chiku said. "Probably the Whopper Junior you had for supper." She gave her friend an encouraging hug.

"Again?" Jess wondered.

Chiku shrugged, her eyes already studying the multiple subway tracks for inbound and outbound trains, seeking the next challenge on the obstacle course of her life. Jess could just imagine what feat of physical magic the girl with the chimpanzee tattoo on her biceps was planning now.

"Boys? You gonna let two babes show you up?"

Chiku looked back at the three boys none of whom had taken Jess’s leap of faith. This was the best time of night to practice her peculiar art form, mixture of rollerblading with free running, a form of urban gymnastics that required daring aerial acts and risky hand-eye coordination. The Bruins had been playing a hockey game at the TD Bank Garden earlier in the evening. The crowds were gone now, except for those who filed into the local bars. She and her four friends would have to head home soon before the T closed down for the evening. For the time being, the station was quiet.

"How ‘bout trying something that’s not going to give me a nose bleed?" one of the boys said.

"Don’t care for heights, Andy?"

Chiku placed her hands on her hips and stood high on her blades. Andy was taller without skates but gawky and awkward, a senior bound for some four-year college. Then there were the Zambrowskis, Tim and Jim, a year younger than their mentor. Because their dad’s name was Robert, their classmates had taken to calling them the Bob Z Twins. They were built more along the lines of Chiku, all wind and energy, but they didn’t have her cunning and derring-do. They were special needs kids.

"I’ve got a better idea," she told them. "Lower to the ground."

She skated over to the plywood board and dragged it towards the closest train track. She was slender, but she was strong and had no problem lifting the first of two cinder blocks that she had used to slant the plywood into a ramp. Tim Zambrowski carried the second one and watched her create another ramp, this one ominously facing perpendicular to the inbound rail.

"We have to get to the other side to catch the outbound Greenline anyway, don’t we?" she said.

The boys gave way as she vaulted over the concrete barrier. She took each of the Zambrowskis in hand and propelled them ahead of her so Jess and Andy could draw alongside and they could all be privy to her philosophical take on the night.

"The mark of a heads-up chick," she explained to her friends as she steered them back up the ramp for the next descent, "is knowing how to be quiet. Not all this blah-blah-blah. You gotta be still, patient, like a snake. Us survivors, we know when to strike."

"But Chiku…"

"Most people don’t know how to shut the ‘f ‘ up. How to listen. We’re a country of empty-headed reality show junkies. Out in the jungle it’s different. You got to be silent. You got to be on your guard. You got to be on the alert all the time."

"Chiku…"

"That’s just the way it is."

"But Chiku, you don’t know how to be quiet," Andy said

"Or patient," added Tim.

"Or how to shut up. You haven’t stopped talking all night."

"I haven’t?"

"Do you ever listen to yourself?" Jim wondered. "Or make sense?"

Up ahead on the ramp a loud group of teenagers wearing Westlake High School jackets was making its way down towards the rollerbladers. The drinking age in Massachusetts was twenty-one, but kids could always find an adult to buy them beer, especially after a Bruins or Celtics game. These kids were stoned, a fact Chiku ignored. She wasn’t a moralist. In a pocket of the pack that was strapped to her back she kept her own plastic baggie of grass.

"I guess I forgot to take my Adderall today," she said.

At the top of the ramp down into the station, Chiku stopped. Her chest was heaving, not because she was winded from the climb up or because she wasn’t properly medicated. The world was her battlefield, and the North Station T stop was her arena tonight. She would give no ground though she didn’t expect her friends to take the risks she would take.

"You guys can wait for me on the other side of the track. I’m going in."

"What do you mean?" Jess asked.

"Down, over and across."

"Hunh?" Jim and Tim, the Bob Z Twins gazed down the runway, perplexed.

"There was a river in the Congo," Chiku told them. In her eye, she could see it this very moment. Dark and twisting in the rain forest night. Five years ago, was it? "Crocodiles lying in wait. One moment you’re floating gently down stream. The next these huge jaws clamp onto your shoulder and drag you into the water. Nobody ever sees you again."

"Shit, Chiku. Did that happen to you?"

"Duh! I’m here, aren’t I, Andy? Wait for me downstairs on the far side of the track. All of you."

"What are you going to do, girl?" Jess asked her.

"I didn’t make it across the river that night. Tonight, five years to the day, I’m going to."

The boys didn’t have a clue what Chiku meant. They hardly ever did though they liked to hear her just the same. She had that way about her. One at a time she had gathered them in. Loners. Targets. They were her lost boys. Her outcasts. Whenever she spoke, she seduced them. She had been to places, seen things, none of them ever would. Nothing the city had to offer intimidated her. Yet her voice was low and sultry, soft and conspiratorial, winding about their shoulders and drawing them close to her. All the boys felt it, even when she didn’t make sense.

Jess felt it, too, only something more compelling drew her to Chiku. The danger of her. The strength. The fearlessness. The defiance.

"Wherever you go, I go," she said.

"You don’t have to, kiddo."

"I want to." Then Jess did something that Chiku had taught her and the boys. Using her hands, she put her fists together and moved them in a circle, thumbs up. Next she made a circle with her index finger and ended pointing at Chiku with a fist, thumb and pinkie finger extended. "Together forever," she signed.

"That could be a mistake," Chiku told her but smiled, pleased that her friend had learned the language Chiku had first picked up in a school across the Atlantic. "I don’t want you to get hurt. This crossing is for me. If you don’t think you can handle it, back off. You hear? I don’t want to have to lug you home over my shoulder."

Chiku turned to the ramp that led into the bowels of the subway station. The kids from Westlake had reached the track, but she could still hear their boisterous laughter. Chimpanzees sounded like that sometimes, when they were scared. She kind of doubted these kids were afraid of anything. Not now anyway. They were drunk.

"You remember what I said," she told Jess as she got into a crouch, ready to push off on her blades. "I’m off my meds. Crazy. I do not want you to get hurt."

Jess winked. "Maybe I like being lugged."

"I bet."

Pulling her knitted cap down tight over her head, Chiku let out a howl. "Hoo! Hoo! Wraa!" Then down the ramp she flew, Jess six feet behind. Their bodies accelerated. The woolen braids of Chiku’s cap flapped in the wind. Chiku didn’t take a direct path down the decline but wove in and around the few pedestrians making their way into the station.

She ignored their shouts. She ignored everything and focused instead on that night in the Congo, on that terrible evening when she had been sitting in the stern of a boat listening to the chimpanzees calling to her on the shore. Dora. Dolwin. Scooter. Pan. Scallion was there, too, when the crocodile lunged out of the waters, a nightmare monster, so quick, so startling, and took her mother down, down, to her death.

Chiku and Jess hit the platform racing like cheetahs on the hunt across the savannah, arms and legs flying. Passengers waiting for trains appeared as dark images out of the corner of Chiku’s eye. Andy, Jim and Tim, on the far side of the track, yelled at her, but she didn’t pay them any mind. She could still feel the humidity of the jungle forest and feel the spray of water as the crocodile surfaced. All she had seen that night was a sudden dark shape latching onto her mother’s arm. Her mother had screamed. Once only. Then she had disappeared over the side.

"Wraaaa!"

Chiku shouted then abruptly was airborne. She knew full well a train was entering the station. Lights flickered. She could hear the warning ee-oo, ee-oo over the loud speaker. She could feel the warm breeze carrying in its wake debris down the line and across her cheeks.

This is my crocodile, she thought. This is my time. Here it comes. Here it comes. This time I win.

The train leapt out of the darkness at her. As she hurtled through the air reeking of garbage and human sweat and across the rattling metal track, Chiku braced herself for a hard landing. She touched down just as the subway roared out of the tunnel.

"Woo-hoo! Yip, yip, yip!"

Jess came right behind almost upon Chiku’s shirt tail. Swearing at the top of her lungs, she careened into her friend, tumbling them both into the crowd of drunken students from Westlake High. The two girls were way out-numbered.

"What the fuck!" The rowdies from Westlake gawked at the girls lying at their feet, all tattoos, spiked hair, and facial mutilation. Bleeding, dirty and tough. Chiku and Jess were just begging for a Royal Wrestling smackdown even if they were female. "Two punk ass bitches. What the fuck are you doing?"

"It’s called gut check," Chiku said. Brushing herself off, she picked up Jess who had added a cut to her forehead with the scrape she had earned on her arm before.

"You okay? That was awesome, Jess!"

"Jesus Christ, Chiku. I didn’t know the train would be so close!"

"That’s the whole point."

"You two lezzies must have a death wish," one of the boys said. Football big, he was eying Jess with interest.

"They’re dykes. Dykes do things normal girls don’t. Look at her muscles."

"Fuck you," Chiku said. "Hands off the shirt."

A third boy, smelling of whatever he had been drinking illegally, grabbed Chiku’s shirt and lifted the sleeve to reveal her chimpanzee tattoo. Two other boys circled around Jess and began touching her. They looked up only when the train/crocodile that had narrowly missed taking Chiku and Jess down, down, to their deaths closed its doors and took off.

"Great," the first boy said. "You made us miss our train. We oughta…"

"You oughta keep your hands off me."

Chiku didn’t wait for him to remove his hand from her sleeve. She slammed the palm of her right hand into his nose and pushed him away. Then she turned her attention to the two males who were bothering Jess, imposing herself between them.

"I wouldn’t," she said.

"Why? You want some, too?"

Chiku’s response was a hard palm to his solar plexus which doubled the boy over so that she could ram her knee into his face. He came away with a bloody nose, which did not set well with the rest of his friends. They were on the two girls in an instant, too drunk to care who they were hitting. Andy, Jim and Tim leaped to their friends’ defense pulling two boys off Jess, punching and kicking the Westlake kids from behind.

"Cops! Cops!" someone yelled.

"Wraaa!"

Chiku was too into the battle to think clearly about flight. She growled, battling the boys as if they were the crocodile from the Mamba River. Her mother had put up no resistance, hadn’t any chance. Chiku was damned if she’d ever be put in that situation. She’d draw blood and do significant damage before anyone did anything like that to her.

"Cops!"

This time it was Andy who shouted. One of the station attendants had called T security. Four armed officers in black uniforms converged on the melee, picking up and tossing bodies off a pile that consisted of a bunch of males slugging two struggling females. Chiku was hauled to her feet, threw a wild left hook at whoever had grabbed her, then took off, pulling Jess with her.

"Let’s go!" she hollered at the boys.

They weren’t drunk and they were all on roller blades, so when they jumped the turnstiles and headed back up the ramp, the security focused on the boys from Westlake High instead. One security guard got on his radio, but by the time any reinforcements could arrive to arrest the kids from Brookline High, they had disappeared into the night.

Out on Causeway Street skating towards Boston City Hall and the downtown, Chiku let out a loud hoot and raised her fist in triumph. "PMs rule!" she bellowed and spun around in the middle of Government Center plaza. The April night was still chilly but Chiku felt only warmth, the heat of battle coursing through her veins. She squeezed Jess in her arms then kissed each of the boys on the cheek, making them blush each in their turn.

"You guys were great! We kicked ass!"

"We almost got our asses killed," Jim said. He was breathing hard and had to take a seat up against a concrete abutment of city hall. There were many nooks and niches in the monstrosity built in the 1960s, places where kids could hide even in the middle of downtown Boston. Jess sat beside the Bob Z’s and watched Chiku do a pirouette on skates. She could be a ballerina, Jess thought, with a potent jab.

"That was such a blast!" Chiku said. "You see how we flew by that train?"

"Could have gotten both of you killed, Chiku," Andy said. "You are so wired tonight."

"Life’s a bitch," Chiku replied. "You got to slap it around a bit before you can get it under control. Like those pigs from Westlake. Hit ‘em once. They won’t come back."

Her energy never seemed to fade, especially when she went off her meds. When she finally crouched beside Jess, she was lit up, her body heaving, her nerves on edge, her eyes sparkling with an intensity that made Jess worship her friend.

Chiku took off her backpack, unzipped one of the pockets. Removing the baggie of marijuana, she rolled herself a joint and took a drag. "Anyone else?" she offered. "Maybe I am wired. So what? What else do we have?"

Jess took a hit. Andy tried it but coughed. The Zambrowskis begged off but looked to see what else Chiku stored in her portable treasury. Stale fries, Doritos, a half finished bottle of Mountain Dew, Gummy Bears—Chiku doted on sugar. And a stash of medications. They were the PMs after all, the Pharmaceutically Maintained.

"You know, we’re probably going to have to skate back to Brookline now," Tim said.

"Your parents going to be a problem? I’ll tell them we got out of a late movie."

"Won’t do any good. My parents…."

"Least you got some." Chiku reached into the pocket and took out a bag of medicine bottles. "Okay," she said. "Who’s ADHD?" Two hands went up. Mama Chiku doled out their evening meds. "Bipolar?" One hand. Jess’s. Chiku gave her a Depakote tablet. "Depression?" Chiku’s hand went up with that one. She swallowed two green pills. "Mood disorder?" That got all five hands raised. "God," Chiku said with a smile, "I love this family."

Brookline really wasn’t that far. Not on rollerblades. Once Chiku and her friends reached the Boston Common, all they had to do was follow Beacon Street straight out a couple of miles. There was traffic, of course. It was Saturday night, and they had to pass through Kenmore Square. The Boston University crowd was out in full. Boston College students partied at the local clubs, too, mixing with young elite from MIT, Harvard, Northeastern, Tufts, dozens of other universities and law and medical schools in and around Greater Boston, PhD candidates and scholars from every country on the planet.

Skating in, about and around them, Chiku couldn’t help wondering what the future held for her. Her parents were both anthropologists, and she supposed she had inherited their fine I.Q.s though her high school grades certainly were no indication. More pressure. More self-doubts. Needing to get ahead, unsure what ahead meant. Her mother had wanted Chiku to follow in her academic shoes.

"The African wilderness is disappearing," Samantha Burchill had told her daughter. "Even the chimpanzees are endangered. You have such a gift, dear. More than me. More even than your father. If you listen, you can hear the chimpanzees calling your name. They don’t do that for your father or me. This is the place for you. Africa."

Right, Chiku thought. Tell that to the crocodile.

"I’m only sending you home because you need to grow up around normal kids in the real world," Seth Flynn, her father, had explained to her. "Your mother wouldn’t want you to stay now. With me. Alone. With no friends but the hairy four-foot kind. I’ll bring you back. When the time’s right. When you’ve grown up."

I grew up five years ago, Chiku thought. Just nobody noticed but me.

The PMs skated down Beacon Street until it was time to split up for the night. Each of the boys said their farewells, sporting bruises from their fight in the T Station. Jess had a cut lip and Chiku a black eye.

"Can I come home with you?"

"Trouble at home?" Chiku asked her tag team partner.

"You know."

"No, I don’t."

Chiku took her friend’s hand and they skated together down a quieter side street off Beacon. The Burchills were known as America’s Leakey Family. The British Leakeys had become world famous for their digs at Olduvai Gorge and their discoveries of ancient hominids, the precursors of mankind. The Burchills had been studying the customs and systems of human beings since the 19th century. Five generations deep into the mess known as human civilization, Chiku was left, a primary example of human failure.

Her great-grandfather had taught at Harvard. Her grandfather won a Nobel Prize in socio-economics. Chiku lived with her grandmother in a pricey one-family brownstone that had been in the family for over a hundred years. Not only did she come from academia, she also came from wealth. Though no one would have guessed by her raggedy jeans bloodstained from where her knee had collided with some boy’s face. She figured she was more like her dad, a rough and tumble Irishman who had grown up poor, angry but brilliant and who had met her mother in, of all places, the Congolese rain forest.

"What’s up at home?" she asked Jess.

"Stepdad doesn’t like lezzies."

"Too bad for him. He hit you?"

"No. We just don’t get along. If he sees me like this, he might toss me out on my ass. My mom won’t stand up for me."

"Well, I will."

Jess snorted out a trickle of blood from her nose. She wiped away a tear, gazing shyly at the alpha female, her friend, who she secretly adored. "No more knees to noses tonight, Chiku, if you don’t mind. I’m kind of tired."

"Yuh, I guess, me, too," Chiku said. "Of course, you can stay. As long as you like. Grammy likes you. We’ll adopt you."

Jess wanted to kiss her friend on the spot, but they had reached Chiku’s home. Chiku bent over to retrieve a key hidden behind a black wrought iron gate beneath a loose brick. By the time she had stood up, her grandmother was framed in the doorway, calling out Chiku’s name, letting the intimate moment pass.

"It’s me, Grammy," Chiku called. "We have a guest tonight."

"Is that Christine?"

"No, Grammy. You know Jess. She comes over all the time. You know, the novelist."

"Oh, yes, the novelist." Lucy Burchill, stood aside, as the two sixteen-year-olds entered the foyer passing beneath a chandelier and onto a carpeted front hall. Lucy was Grammy, an octogenarian with sixty years of scholarship behind her, still sturdy and tall. The Burchill women were renowned for their height though Chiku seemed to be staying in the average range.

Chiku kissed her grandmother’s cheek and immediately felt ashamed that she had stayed out so late. When her father had deposited her in Brookline with Lucy five years before, her grandmother had still been maintaining a busy academic regimen, teaching at Wellesley. But in the past few months Lucy’s intellect unlike her stature had begun to degenerate. She’d wake up on a Saturday morning confused about where she was and why she wasn’t dressed and heading to her class. Or she’d turn on the stove and forget to shut it off. Or she’d just forget names, most everyone’s but her granddaughter’s.

"What happened to you, dear?" she said. She studied Chiku’s black eye. "Is that blood on your pants?"

"I fell off a curb, Grammy. We’re fine."

Chiku pulled off her knit cap and hung it up on a hook inside the foyer. She shook out her hair and took her grandmother’s hand.

"You’re so pretty when you dress for school," Lucy said. "I wish you would take better care of yourself."

"I do."

"You’re filling out so. Your father won’t recognize you."

"We’ll see next week. You’ve never met him, have you, Jess?"

"You’ve told me all about him. Sounds pretty cool."

Jess kissed Lucy Burchill’s cheek. "Is it okay if I stay here tonight, Ms. Burchill?"

"Well, you know how many spare bedrooms we have, Liz, is it?"

"Jess, Ma’am."

"I like it when Chiku has friends over. I miss the company. You might take a bath yourself, my dear, before going to bed. It looks like you fell of the same curb."

The two girls trotted up to the second floor. Lucy had a study on the first floor in an alcove facing onto a vegetable garden that she and Chiku both enjoyed working. Now that she was getting older and less stable on her feet, she had taken to sleeping near her work desk. Chiku had lugged down her own futon for her grandmother to use as a bed and generally slept herself in a sleeping bag on the floor.

"I like roughing it," Chiku explained.

"It suits you," Jess said. "I never could picture you curled up with Snoopy and slippers."

"In Africa I built a nest in the trees and slept with the chimpanzees."

"You’re kidding."

"I never told you? Sure. My dad let me do all kinds of shit. You’re gonna love him. I must have videos somewhere."

Chiku rummaged through her closet which was, apropos to her personality, a wreck. Watching her friend toss things around, Jess felt her swollen lip, a common memento when hanging around with the girl everyone at Brookline High thought was crazy.

"Here," Chiku said. She stood up holding a CD ROM, inserted it into her computer, then sat beside Jess on the floor, her legs curled up under her in a yoga position. "My dad’s the greatest. He’s been on the Animal Planet Channel a lot. You know the civil war they’re having over there?"

"Civil War? Like union versus confederates?"

"Jess, are you not in my social studies class?"

"Like people are dying?"

"Duh! Like thousands. My dad is trying to protect the chimps. The war has spread into the national park and the animal refuge lands. I worry about my troop. I haven’t seen them in five years."

The screen on the computer flashed a segment from a program on the Animal Planet. When Seth Flynn appeared, Chiku brought her knees up under her chin and wrapped her arms around her shins. She stared with rapture at the image of the father/god she hadn’t seen in person for more than a year.

"The chimpanzees have called this part of the Congo home for tens of thousands of years," Flynn was saying. He was a burly man with curly red hair, handsome. He had not lost his Dublin brogue. Every so often Chiku would say a phrase that would just pop out of her mouth in her father’s dialect. He’d been a boxer in his college days and had shown his only child a thing or two. But what had fascinated Chiku the most about her father, the man the chimpanzees called Tree Storm, was his fearlessness and his love of the animals.

"Now the chimpanzee homelands are being invaded," Flynn was telling an audience of television watchers. "The war between the Hutus and Tutsis ended several years ago but has recently been stirred up again. Refugees are poring into the rain forest, not only taking up land but, driven by hunger, trapping and poaching the wildlife, including our closest animal relatives, the chimpanzees. We must do what we can to stop this tragedy before it is too late and we alone among the primates survive."

"Wow," Jess said. She gazed at Chiku who was transfixed by her father. "You’re right. I would like to meet him. Maybe I could go to Africa with you. If you went back some day."

"Yeah, that would be cool." Chiku’s smile was brief. Somehow she doubted she would ever go back even though her dad had promised her she could go.

My grades suck, she thought. When he sees my report card, he’s going to go ballistic. Bye-bye Harvard.

Unwinding her legs, she replaced the first CD ROM with a second. "I think this is a family portrait," she said. "I haven’t looked at these for a while."

The next view to come on the screen was a hand waving at a camera before the picture extended to show an arm attached to a shoulder and then the face of a ten- or eleven-year-old girl wearing a Red Sox baseball cap.

"Oh, my God," Chiku said. "I look like a dorky Tarzan."

Jess giggled. The child Chiku on the computer screen was all arms and legs dressed in a leopard skin one-piece suit. "Papa! Papa!" she was saying. The hand that wasn’t waving at the camera was tugging a chimpanzee who was imitating Chiku wave for wave. At about four feet in height, the chimpanzee stood only a few inches shorter than his human female playmate.

"That’s Scallion," Chiku told her friend. "He was my BFF in those says."

"A monkey?"

"A chimpanzee, if you don’t mind. They share ninety-eight percent of our DNA, my lass. I was teaching him how to read."

"Real cool."

Whoever was filming the younger version of Chiku with the chimpanzee named Scallion moved the focus so that the viewer could now get a wider survey of the scientific research center that Chiku had called home for eleven years. Trees surrounded several tents and a shed. In the open space between the structures a number of other chimpanzees wandered into and out of view.

The precocious Scallion was sporting a wide grin and using hand signals to communicate to Chiku.

"He’s talking to you!" Jess said. "What’s he saying?"

"Come. Play. I taught him a lot. I love you." Chiku lowered the middle and ring fingers of her right hand making the sign for "I love you’ to indicate the most important human communication of all. When her mother appeared, Samantha Burchill, in khaki shorts, a pair of binoculars dangling over her matching shirt, Chiku stiffened and uttered a soft groan. Her mother was writing on a clipboard, looked up to smile at the film maker.

"My mom," Chiku said. "My dad must be taking the pictures. He specializes in linguistics. Mom was more interested in chimpanzee behavior. Me, I just liked to hang out with my homies."

"They’re cute."

"I might as well have been one of them. After my mother… died… I practically lived with them. Crazy as it sounds, I wasn’t so different from Tarzan."

"That would explain a lot," Jess said.

Chiku looked up as her bedroom door opened. Lucy Burchill peaked in, took one look at the computer screen and turned away. "You have a phone call, Chiku."

"This late? I didn’t hear it ring."

"It’s Cary."

"Why is she calling me?"

Chiku glanced at Jess who had no idea who Cary was.

"My sister," Chiku explained. "Half sister. Mom’s daughter, not Dad’s."

Standing, Chiku headed for the door. When Jess made to follow her, Lucy put up a hand. "Not now, dear," she said. "I’ll make you something, if you like. You look hungry." Then she shut the door behind her, cutting off any response Jess might have made, making it clear Chiku’s friend wasn’t to follow.

"Something the matter?" Chiku asked. She held her grandmother’s hand as they descended the staircase. "Cary would never call me…"

"It’s about your father." Lucy stopped at the bottom of the staircase and cupped her granddaughter’s face in her hands. There was no vacant look of dementia in her expression now. Only concern for her youngest grandchild. "You need to be strong, Chiku. The games, the fighting, they have to stop now."

"What do you mean?"

Chiku’s eyes met her grandmother’s. Her body tensed, tightened, coiled, the way it did when she was preparing a jump she’d never done before, a dangerous maneuver that made the eyes pop and the heart soar. Only now her legs were undermining her. They were shaking so much, she had to hold onto the much older woman to keep herself from falling to her knees.

"Take the call," Lucy Burchill said. "Cary will explain everything. Your father has disappeared."

Thursday, July 25, 2013

ROOM OF TEARS by Linda Merlino

 ROOM OF TEARS by Linda Merlino

Out of tragedies come heroes and miracles…

At 9:59 a.m. on September 11, 2001, Diane O’Connor’s life as a firefighter’s wife changes forever shattering her faith. She writes daily of her sadness and four decades later she still keeps a note she wrote on 9/11 to her husband, Billy, hanging on her kitchen cabinet in Queens, the paper yellowed with age.

In the summer of 2041, Diane invites Friar Antonio Ortiz to her home. He is a man destined to become counsel to the first American pope—her son, Peter. Antonio asks no questions and arrives in secret, promising to wait nineteen years until Peter’s papal election before passing Diane's journal to him. Only then will Billy’s story be told, along with answers to Peter’s questions about his father’s last days.

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ONE


“Billy is gone . . .”


—Journal entry, 9/11/2001


Queens, New York, July 2041



Diane O’Connor and Father Antonio Ortiz met for the first time at the front door of her home in Queens. She smoked, or so he thought, given the burnt smell greeting him as she ushered him inside. A striking woman dressed in beige slacks and a flowered blouse, she was not as tall as he expected, maybe a few inches over five feet. Diane extended her hand, the fringe of her ruffled cuff hiding all but her fingers, which were long and frail. She wore no jewelry except for a plain gold wedding band, and as she took his summer coat, he noticed how loose-fitting her clothes hung on her thin frame.

An antique hat stand was the repository for his panama while his coat went deftly onto a hanger and into a closet, along with his valise. Once done with housekeeping she stood back and looked at him, her head cocked to one side and her eyes wide and bright with little trace of aging. When she had taken in the breadth and width of him, she took his hand with a graceful movement, and he reached out to clasp hers between his and met her gaze.

“How was your trip?” she asked. He replied that the flight was uneventful, except for a delay in Milan, and noted that her voice had a throaty quality, which spoke of years of cigarettes, or secondhand smoke. Her wide mouth, when she talked, had a broadness that displayed an irregular alignment of teeth, the two front ones noticeably overlapped. This quirk of ivory added a certain charm to the unique features of her face: clay pools for eyes, an aquiline nose, and a thick head of long hair that graced her shoulders. Its softness, suffused with the browns of autumn, outlined her beauty. A beauty, he imagined, grown more intense with the years. The only betrayal of time showed in the darkness under her eyes, where the shadows of lost sleep lay imprinted under her lashes, her tattoos of mourning forever visible.

“Excuse the awkwardness, Señora O’Connor. If I stare it is because I see your son, Peter, in your countenance,” Antonio said. Diane seemed taken off guard by his remark. She offered the priest a thank you and then moved ahead of him, motioning with one hand to follow.

The house—its walls, floors, and furniture frozen in the late twentieth century—had a series of small rooms attached to one another off an L-shaped hallway: the living room, the dining room, and then the kitchen. On the stark white walls of the passageway were photographs, each picture mounted on a seamless backing hung off the cove molding on long extensions of wire. Antonio slowed his step to peer at the glossy images. Most were firefighters—some wearing caps and suspenders mugging for the camera’s lens, while others wore dress-blue uniforms, their chests expanded with pride and their mouths drawn firm. Two faces stood out among the many: one a firefighter, the other a priest.

He pressed in closer to examine their similarities, knowing that they were brothers, remembering what Peter O’Connor had told him of his family. The two men could have been twins, so similar were their features, and except for their hair color—one yellow gold and the other fire red—both grinned the same grin out to the world.

Absorbed, Antonio neglected to notice that Diane had disappeared into the kitchen. He thought to ask her about the two men in the photographs, and when he turned in anticipation of seeing her next to him, he took a step toward where she might be standing. His right foot struck a pair of boots propped upright against the wall. He stumbled and put a hand out to that empty place where he thought she might be, but his face did not meet hers, and instead came within an inch of a firefighter’s helmet, the medallion of its FDNY ladder company polished and gleaming.

On the edge of that moment, trying to regain his balance, each breath he took tightened in his throat. Antonio began to gag. His mind raced. What could be happening? One minute he was looking at photographs and the next his throat was constricting. An acrid odor rose to his nostrils. He shook his head—the same faint smell he’d noticed from before, at the door, but stronger, sharp enough now to sear his soft membranes. My God, he thought and recoiled. Sweat sprang from his face and neck. A heart attack? He clutched his chest. No, not that. His heart was fine except for the galloping beat under his ribcage. Heat emanated from the helmet as if it had just come through an inferno. “My God,” he said aloud. Perhaps a fire burned inside the wall, hot enough to choke him.

 Antonio backed away and cupped his hands over his face, bending over at the waist and taking in gulps of air, as his host reappeared in the kitchen’s doorway. “Señora . . .” Antonio’s voice was a rasping bark. “I beg your forgiveness; I have knocked over your husband’s boots.” His eyes stung from the stench and began to water. “I am sorry, Señora, but the helmet . . .”

Diane reassured him there was no fire, nothing to worry about, and walked back into the kitchen. Antonio followed and found her at the stove warming coffee. There was a plate of pastry on the table, canoli and napoleons piled in a stack, enough for several guests. He went to the table and pulled out a chair for himself and one for her.

“The helmet, Señora—it was burning,” Antonio said, his throat still raw.

 “You have so many questions in your head about this house, and about the brothers in the pictures on the wall.” She raised her eyes and looked in that direction as if from there she could see the photographs. Then she handed him a glass of water while she spoke. There it was again, he thought, that ragged tone, and the accent slightly nasal. “Unfortunately we have little time for small talk,” she said. “I had hoped to explain slowly the unexplained that fills this house, but you’ve made some of your own discoveries. The heat from a helmet long retired provides you with a smattering of insight into the history of this family. Disturbing as this may be to you, for me, it’s commonplace, familiar.”

 Antonio had just taken a sip of water, the glass suspended in midair, and he paused to look at her. A fiery helmet commonplace? he thought to himself. Peter, once joking, had mentioned his mother’s house being haunted, but he never said anything about equipment burning. What is going on here? 

He opened his mouth to speak, but he could not find the correct phrase. He stuttered, all the time looking at the woman, at Peter’s mother. One large window framed the backdrop behind her, and with the morning sun pouring in, the light forced him to squint. A note hung on the cabinet door just to her left. He could not read it from where he sat, and probably not even up close because the ink and the paper appeared faded. The room, at that moment, seemed cast in a dense halo that formed an aura around her.

Struck by that vision, Antonio dropped his glass. It slipped from his thumb and forefinger, knocking his cup of coffee onto the pristine white tablecloth and sending shards of dainty porcelain and glass onto the floor. The shattering noise jolted him and he rose quickly, but Diane did not move. She stood encased in the light, emblazoned like an apparition. He knelt to gather the pieces, but instead found himself on both knees, praying.

“The knowing is no mystery,” she said. “There are spirits here, in this house. Peter grew up with them, but he never acknowledged their presence. If you ask him, he will deny their existence, but you’re different; you will not flee from them. The scorching helmet in the hallway is cold to the touch of others.” One of her eyebrows arched high into her forehead, as if asking him if he understood.

 “No, Señora,” he said, stuttering again. “You are mistaken. I am God’s humble servant here on earth. A priest of St. Francis committed to serving the poor,” Antonio answered, still on his knees, feeling the heat of which she spoke.

“You’ll become the Pope’s counsel, an enviable position—the secretary to the bishop of Rome.” Her remark was encased in annoyance. “Petawh,” she began again, emphasizing the loss of the letter r with her impatience, “is no common priest, chosen, as he was before his birth to sit on this earth as the Vicar of Christ. Your friendship with him isn’t coincidental.” She drummed her fingers. “When you pray, offer thanks to those who watch over you. They’ve interceded on your behalf.”

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Tuesday, July 23, 2013

PELICAN BAY by Jesse Giles Christiansen

PELICAN BAY by Jesse Giles Christiansen

After Ethan Hodges discovers an undersea cemetery just off the beach of Pelican Bay, South Carolina, he seeks answers from a grandfatherly fisherman named Captain Shelby.

The captain wants the past to remain buried, and he warns Ethan to stay away. But Ethan doesn’t listen.

Ethan’s best friend and secret love interest, Morgan Olinsworth, joins in the investigation, unearthing intriguing secrets about the mysterious fisherman.

When Captain Shelby is suspected of murder and disappears, a manhunt ensues, revealing a truth that unnerves everyone in Pelican Bay.

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~Excerpt~

PROLOGUE

Aspen Langsley fell prey to a dare, for he was small and awkward for his age and always eager to be anything but that way.

The year was 1931, and the gaunt arms of the Great Depression reached even the forgottenness of Pelican Bay, South Carolina. Were it not for the fish that still happily fed near their shores, or the big bags of flour that stout elders had put away for meager times such as those, they might have emaciated themselves right into the great sea.

Aspen awoke from a terrible nightmare that he had had ever since he was four years old. The haunting dreams started after picnicking with his parents on Pelican Beach where he first saw the old fisherman standing, like a petrified pirate, atop a nearby dune. And when he had them, they were always about the old man. That growling, chuckling barnacle—the crusty ambassador of Pelican Bay. His nightmare always had the same awesome echo of slimy figures swathed in the clothes of Vikings, their winged head gear the iron ghosts of prehistoric gulls, and their rotting, creased faces like pages of little oval history books written in indecipherable font. And always in front, leading them more by his oceanic presence than by anything else—without exception—the old man.

They were coming to punish the townspeople for thinking too much about things that were better left alone.

Aspen did not understand how he could succumb to such a dare, how he had to confront his worst nightmare like a tiny son of Superman facing a truckload of kryptonite. But his father, a great fisherman in his own right, Captain John Langsley Sr., always told him that wars were mainly fought by very young men who were hungry for honor. And facing the scary old fisherman in his dreams always felt like a dark war, the battlegrounds the ornery sea and the misty mire of his psyche.

They started stripping Aspen of his honor early on, right from the first grade.

Though Aspen was undersized from the beginning—for a while the Langsleys feared they might have birthed a little person—he was too many inches behind his peers. He also held too much weight for his age. By seven years old, he had boy breasts and was ridiculed for it as relentlessly as the beach was by the vicious Pelican Bay tides. His mom would try to make up for it when she often said, "Don't worry Aspen. Your body's going to catch up one day and that fat will turn into big muscles. You'll see."

But Aspen would never see—never see beyond the sleepy blackness of that dare on an unexpectedly chilly June night.

Freckly Chucky Olinsworth was the worst by far. "You have bigger breasts than my sister," he would say. But who was Chucky to say anything? Unlike Aspen, he was the same size as the other kids, but was covered in noisy red freckles from head to toe. He looked like a walking Alabama night sky seen through a red-lensed telescope, and besides, he spoke with the voice of a mosquito giving its existential view through a megaphone.

Then there was Bert—short for Berton—Hodges. He was tall for his age, but ridiculously gangly and so pale that in the summer, when Pelican Bay's skies were not usually bruised, you could see blue veins swimming underneath his skin like a school of baby bluefish. Bert's hair was as black as a starless night or Pelican Bay's absence on any map—so black against his sickly skin as to make him look like a male Goth. "Can I have a feel?" he would always say. Then he would cop one immediately in spite of Aspen's answer. Chucky would join in until Aspen lay on the ground squirming and screaming under the twirling sting of descending twin-titty-twisters.


The dare was born of ghost stories on an early summer eve, a windy dusk blanketing the dunes in view of the old fisherman's just-lit lantern, flickering like a lost soul. His boat was moored to the slippery docks in the near distance, creaking like it always did—a wooden brontosaurus with arthritis.

"You know who's a ghost for real?" Bert said, his dark hair a dune-tip shadow waving in the breeze, a dancing black flame, his eyes darting off to the captain's bobbing boat.

"Shut up," Chucky said.

"I want to know," Aspen said.

"Of course you do, dip shit," Chucky rifled, the stiffening wind now carrying his voice away.

"Have you ever seen him up close?" Bert went on.

"You're an idiot," Chucky said.

"I saw him once," Aspen said, "when I was four. His face is the oldest face I've ever seen."

Chucky laughed. A bullish laugh. Aspen felt a punch coming. Crossed his arms. Cowered for it but it did not come.

"A few years ago I was fishing with my dad and saw him bathing in the ocean near the shore by the old docks. His face looked to be in its twenties," Bert said.

"This is complete bullshit," Chucky said.

"Well, maybe so. You can sit here jerking off and telling stupid stories all night. But if you want to see a real ghost," Bert concluded, "then you need to go out and talk to that old man."

"Ha, ha. What a bunch of morons," Chucky said.

"I believe it. He gives me the willies," Aspen said in a loud whisper. His gentle blue eyes, now almost lost to the engulfing blackness of Pelican Bay, looked near raving.

And the punch finally came.

It seemed to Aspen that they always came without warning. They were like the ominous Atlantic storms that seemed to enjoy bullying Pelican Bay. A jinxed boy, a jinxed town. But Aspen preferred a bad storm over the punches or the insults. He preferred the honor of dying in a storm.

"I've got better things to do," Chucky said, starting up.

"Yeah? Better than watching Aspen go out there and say hi to the old man?"

Chucky sat back down again on the cheek of the dune, his eyes flaring, an evil smile burgeoning.

"You can forget it," Aspen said, rising, his voice trembling a little, betraying the fear underneath its counterfeit bravado.

Another punch. This time from Bert.

"Chicken. Bock, bock, bock," Chucky said, marching around the dune, flapping his arms in grotesque mockery.

The old man's lantern suddenly went out for a moment and goose-bumps ripped at the boys flesh.

Suddenly the lantern was lit again. They all looked at each other, wide-eyed.

"You want to be a real man?" Bert asked. "You want to be treated like one of us?"

"Yeah. You want to stop being a pussy your whole life?" Chucky added, laughing obnoxiously.

Now Aspen looked at them, then out toward the docks, then back at each of them. "I don't have to prove anything."

Chucky grabbed him and he struggled. Bert came up in front of him and said, "We haven't twisted those titties in a while."

"Don't! I don't have titties!"

"Prove it," Bert said.

"Yeah, show us you're not a girl with titties."

Bert reached for Aspen's nipples while Chucky held him.

"Ok! Stop! I'll do it."

"You will?" Bert said.

"He's lying," Chucky said.

"Give me that lantern," Aspen said. "I'll go out there and say hi to that old ghost—and you'll see that I'm not a pussy—that I'm just as tough as you guys."

"Yeah right. You're full of shit," Chucky said.

"No. I think I believe the chicken shit. Give him the lantern," Bert said.



The onyx cloak of a Pelican Bay night was almost upon them. Aspen looked back toward the dunes and his friends had been swallowed by the dark. As he took his first step onto the docks, he looked ahead at the old man's boat, a buoying shadow of archaic oak, a symphony of moaning ropes and petulant planks, a sputtering lantern which was perhaps a disembodied pirate debating between this world and the next.

He stopped just near the boat, struggling to maintain his footing on the slimy dock boards.

"Hello. My name's Aspen. I've come to talk to you."

Nothing.

"I mean you no harm." Aspen's voice was soft and gentle, even when blasted and pitched. He was to be a little orphan Oliver replaying his debut dramatic role for all eternity.

Still nothing.

And then suddenly the darkness grunted. So near him. So near. And there was a sea stench that the young boy could have never known existed until that night. His every youthful sense was insulted, his every thought was of dark, oaky places, his every feeling that of waking in an ancient tomb under the sea.

As his virginal feet began to turn they slipped into the air and the back of his head hit the dock. The next thing that he knew he was immersed in a drastic, salty wetness and sucked under the docks by a wicked current. He was dizzy in the cool, black sea. His head hurt immensely.

Suddenly an arm reached down into the water and groped around. It was as thick as a fallen oak log, the arm of a sea god, but as hairy as a fishing grizzly.

Aspen clung to the dock beam under the water, eyes open, a child apparition under the sea, his hands shredded by the toothed barnacles that munched upon his fleshy palms, his lungs already aching, his darkening mind wanting to surrender, his frail body, always too small, always too weak, wanting to quit.

Many seconds passed. Seconds of absolute fear.

Aspen finally found in himself the courage for one reach. But when he stretched for the great arm, it suddenly abandoned its search.

Sleep now.

No more insults.

No more fretful, desperate young life.

Just peaceful sleep. Dreaming with the sea, of the honor of all those who have warred with it and lost.

But better than no honor at all.



CHAPTER ONE

I must have been dreaming, or at least it felt that way, when I first saw the peculiar rocks darkly festooning the ocean floor just beyond the shoreline. They started to appear after the recent storms that had rocked Pelican Bay, South Carolina, black freckles left by Mother Nature to remind Morgan Olinsworth and me, Ethan Hodges, of how small we were in the grand scheme of things.

"Look, off to the right, you can see them under the water. They're so strange. Why are they suddenly showing up? Have you tried to dive down and see them?"

"No," Morgan said, "but if you look a little further out, they're in front of you, too."

I looked carefully in front of me and I could see bulky shadows lurking below the surf, their stony heads protruding from the ocean floor.

It was becoming dark now, nearly too dark to see. Morgan's pale face was almost an early moon—one of those early moons that seems too close to believe. I wanted to kiss her. I had this feeling all the time, but we had been just friends for as long as I could remember.

No one was too friendly in Pelican Bay, and there were so few of us to go around. Morgan headed up the tiny library. She tended to it so carefully, the way that I wish she would me, but she was painfully shy and never really took to people that much. She was the silently proclaimed mayor of our town. Pelican Bay was anything but amiable—and it had no mayor or elected officials—not even a sheriff.

Pelican Bay was beautiful to look at, though, especially on early mornings. When you thought that all hope was lost, the sun would poke its head right out of the sea, glowing just over the horizon, a giant, orange-haired mermaid waking to face the day.

"Let's get our masks and snorkels and dive off the shore tomorrow morning. I really want to see what's down there."

"I don't know," Morgan said.

"Ah, come on—it'll be Sunday. The library will be closed, anyway."

"Maybe. We'll see."

Now it was almost fully dark, and Morgan's face was getting lost—that same moon becoming conscious of itself, experiencing painful shyness and retreating far, far away. Sadness caressed my heart like a rogue winter breeze, and I could hear its breath, hazy strands of pink at the edge of the sea.

"We should head back," I said.

"Good idea."

We said nothing on the way back to town on the foot-worn path through the wild grass and sporadic beach roses, now just dull shapes in the night. I imagined that we were now under the sea visiting those same strange stones. There was a symphony underwriting our silence, and I always felt that we communicated better when nothing was said. But then we would have these conversations that dove deeper than the deepest part of the Atlantic Ocean—deeper than the Puerto Rico Trench.

The little lights from the windows of Pelican Bay's cottages reminded me of ghostly lanterns of old frigates languishing upon a black sea. In that moment, I felt so thankful for those little windows. We gazed at the few stars, now materializing magically above, jealous stars, like those little windows in Van Gogh's famous painting.

"Will you at least think about tomorrow? I'm really curious, aren't you?"

"Let me see how my dad's doing, ok?" Morgan said, her voice the night whispering to me. "He's been a little down lately."

"Why don't you bring him along? The ocean might do him some real good."

"We'll see."

That was the best that you could ever get out of Morgan. In fact, if she ever made any abrupt decisions, there are none of them etched upon my memory. To be with Morgan, you had to be in the moment. She was a spirit that never accepted that she had to live in the real world—always fighting earthly existence, fearing that having to make decisions might somehow surrender the possibility of heaven.

"Good night, Morgan."

"Good night."

I glanced off to my left and I could see a few lights from boats lingering in their usual places in the little harbor hosted by Pelican Bay.

There was an old man, Captain Shelby, who lived on his boat year round, even in the coldest winters when the waves, so cold that it seemed that they might be frozen were it not for their ceaseless motion, would beat against his floating house, knocking to be let in to dream ancient dreams with him.

Captain Shelby was like the pelicans of Pelican Bay—he had been there as long as anything else that our town could remember. And when you peered into his face, if you had such nerve, there was a steadiness indescribable, as if the calm of the sea held its story there, whispering its words through eyes a shade of blue just lighter than the ocean about him. His wrinkles seemed set eons ago, pages written in the history before history. They called him Captain Shelby because he had commanded a fleet of commercial fishing boats in his heyday.

I looked to him for answers about Pelican Bay. I had a lot of questions now, questions that had gone unanswered for too long, questions that could no longer be submerged.

Captain Shelby knew a lot, sometimes everything, it seemed. He helped me back when I had questions about my mother and father, why they had gone missing from Pelican Bay, declared lost at sea, leaving me with my paternal grandmother, Sidney Hodges, to raise me. He said that the great sea would swell up and claim a lot of people. And sometimes the sea would just become vengeful on its own and take people, even when there was no special storm battering our shores and petite bay. As the old man used to say, "It's the still and silent sea that drowns a man."

In Pelican Bay, the sea was the Hand of God.

Seeing that one of the wavering, almost floating boat lights was Captain Shelby's, I headed his way. I had to pass near the docks to get to my grandmother's cottage, anyway. I had another question for the old man—one that even he might not be able to answer this time.

He met me on the dock, as if he already knew that I was coming.

"A bit dark to be out, isn't it, me Son?"

"Yeah—it just got dark so fast today. Is winter coming already?"

"Maybe she's been called early by the sea," he said in his gravelly voice. "So what's on yer mind, me Son? Better tell me quick, or it'll be too late to go to town and I'll have to stow ye out on the deck with some of me old blankets. You'll have to sleep with the pelicans tonight."

I barely stifled a chuckle. His eyes widened and seemed to pick up flecks of unseen light still hanging on from somewhere.

"Morgan and I were out walking on the beach and we saw those old stones. They're so creepy."

"What are ye at now? Better stay clear of them stones. They're dangerous. That's all there's to it. You'll break a leg or bust yer head and the sea'll claim ye."

"Yeah, but—"

"Some things are better left alone. I'll put to the sword those that disagree. I don't know how those dark bjargs got there. They don't seem to go there. Maybe the Great Hurricane brought 'em in—from God knows where, and only God Himself should ask why. Maybe the last few storms finally exposed 'em. Like me said, some things are better left alone."

"But they're just so—weird."

"What ye should be worryin' about is why that pretty librarian won't marry ye. The summer moments always pass quickly."

Silence followed, perhaps summoned by my discomfort over his statement. Captain Shelby knew it and, when he lit his pipe, he smoked our salty silence in it.

"I don't think she loves me."

"Well, ye sure spend enough time together. There's mingling in friendship when a young man can share his whole mind with another. Might as well be married, I say."

"We're just friends."

The old fisherman let himself chuckle out loud. It could have been the sound of approaching thunder.

"I did ask her to dive down and check out the stones with me tomorrow morning. She said she might."

"Bad enough ye can't leave them bjargs alone. No place for such a dainty lady, I say." Captain Shelby was looking across the sea. He had an obvious annoyed expression, his eyes focusing on something far off now. "Ye shouldn't be askin' for trouble. Lost yer parents to the sea, isn't that enough? Anyway, ye best be gettin' on home now. 'Tis dark as molasses out here. Take this flashlight. Ye can bring it back to me tomorrow."

"Ok."

I took the flashlight and turned back toward town. I had not gone but ten paces when he spoke again.

"You'll stay away from them stones, if ye know what's best!"

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